I have been feeling very unsettled. Living with a compromised immune system makes the winter months a challenge and trying to navigate public transport without getting a bug of some sort (and that’s with having a flu jab) is pretty much impossible. News of the terrifying COVID-19 has sent me in to a tailspin and triggered every aspect of my health anxiety. I’m in a high risk group and might not survive if I was exposed to the virus.
Although currently the UK is deemed moderately safe I have been thinking about what it means to live with a chronic illness and to have lost the privilege of confidence in both my body and my health.
Photography always helps. There’s a double exposure setting on my Nikon and I never thought to use it before. Yesterday felt like the right time. I have been reflecting on what it means to live fully in the knowledge that one day the flame will be extinguished. These images attempt to illustrate that conundrum.
